“Feel So Close”- Calvin Harris

I made a decision this morning.

I’ve been counting calories on an app called my fitness pal. Trying to maintain between 1450 and 1500 a day.

I beat myself up mentally for an ice cream cone.

Or the pretzel thins (Buffalo flavor is SO good.)

And today I decided I am done.

There are a million ways to trigger a depressive episode.

Hating myself for fueling my body should not be one of them.

Our registered dietitian at work tells me all the time that food is not emotional- it’s fuel.

And I agree- up to a point.

There is an intrinsic happiness that comes from enjoying a good meal. From the moment that spoon or fork hits your lips- you know whether it’s going to be an experience or dinner.

And I want to enjoy the experiences. I feel as if I am now conscious of what I can and cannot eat.

But I won’t feel bad for splurging.

And if that means I don’t look like a Victoria’s Secret model so be it.

I’d rather look like me anyway. A little short, kind of curvy and with extremely red hair.

So today I am freeing myself from food guilt. And I am just going to enjoy the experience.




2 responses to ““Feel So Close”- Calvin Harris

  1. I agree with you. I believe food and drink is so much more than mere fuel for our bodies; we feed our souls as well. Live and enjoy it all- in moderation, of course. 🙂

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